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- Real Name: Verica Širgić
- Alias: Whore Of Babylon / s0Nne
- Gender: Female
- Birth Date: 13/07/1982 [09:20 am]
- Location: Serbia [former Yugoslavia]
I was born in 1982, in Serbia's small town near the capitol, where I am living at this time, though I have moved a lot since the year 2000, trying to find the better job and graduate the college of Hotel Management in Belgrade, which I did, in January 2007. Since then I am back home with my mother and older sister, living in a small flat downtown.
My parents experienced the pure teenage love back in the seventies and got married in 1979, got their first daughter (my sis, Z.) in 1980 and yours truly in 1982. Both of them were the working class, but that never stood in the way of my sister's and my own education - both of us finished school and college, as well as the course in English which we both attended for years, ever since the early age. Manners, pride, dignity and discipline were always the priorities in our family which led to family fights from time to time, but also to some wonderful moments of childhood that I will remember as long as I live.
My father was the righteous man who died in early age of 37, back in 1995 when he got diagnosed with already late stadium of lung cancer. After the short illness, he passed away in the autumn of that year, leaving the three of us behind him. In the worst of moments and general crisis of our country, the memory of his existence used to keep us together and make us value each others. Loss of the head of our family left some deep and painful scars, but also so much good memories of the times we spent together.
My mother is highly emotional woman who has fought her entire life to provide decent life for me and my sister, doing it the best way she knew, with practically nobody's help in the world. At the time she is in the eight years long relationship with the man that I love as if he was my real father, who has done a lot to keep her sane through all her fights and proved to be honest and righteous in his intentions.
My sister, who I love more then my life, has been my rival my whole life - constant competition has taken place ever since our early childhood, in the area of sports, education, temper crossfires and everything you can imagine. As different in characters as we are - still our similarities are what is more the obvious and what bounds us. She has graduated in law, also got the Oxford degree in English, making me very proud of her and all her knowledge, though stubbornness is her main characteristic. She has gotten in bad condition with her health in autumn of 2006, having two serious surgeries which made me come home from Belgrade and made the two of us much closer then we have ever been.
Ever since my childhood, I was admitted to be the emotional child, showing my interests in writing and drawing with positive results. I have had several emotional crisis in my teenage years, which broke me and even once led me to try to commit suicide. I have survived that attempt and worked a lot on building myself into a person I am now - learned how not to let people get to me on that level ever again. Main result of that is my temper of which I am not proud, and which often stands in my way with explosions of rage I am still learning how to control.
Since I first started college I used to work a lot as the waiter and bartender and learned to love that job and to do it quite well. My constant job changing led to meeting a lot of interesting people - I am still in contact with most of them, and very glad it is so. I have had two memorable relationships which changed me a lot - both ended in not so positive way, but I have learned a lot about love and affection from both of them.
My writings - I used to write in my mother language a lot in my teenage years, mostly as the free verse and prose, but I have stopped for some reason when I got hurt and my thoughts got to the public without my permission. I wasn't ready to be showcased and it hit me hard. Nowadays I am getting slowly back to writing in Serbian, but ever since the year 2000 I am writing poetry in English which proved to be of the certain quality, and which is to be showcased here. I'm proud to say I have three publications behind me at this time.
My life style is what I make of it and I am tending to keep it that way. I enjoy my own conformity which includes sleeping to noon, spending time on the Internet and writing. I am a passionate smoker since 1999 (not proud of it), I used to drink a lot and get under influence of some other vices, but I am not doing all that as much as I used to. I'd say my biggest vices now are cigarettes and coffee.
Music that I am listening to always had a lot of influence of my behaviour and state of mind. It also made me eager to learn German language, since German music became the valuable part of my every day. A song that means to me the most is certainly "Sonne", which means Sun in German and is the well-known Rammstein hit; I am a great fan of their music and work, ever since the 90's.
Religion - I am an Orthodox Christian my entire life, following all the customs that there are, though I am not much of the religious person for real. I have had my war with God in 2003/2004 when my belief in Him got weakened, so I turned my head towards some other beliefs and philosophy. I am not a Satanist, nor a Pagan, though I used to like Wicca (still am liking it), I'm simply following some other thoughts and wisdoms and I believe I'm strong enough to. The one thing I believe in is the thing called Soul that is the essence of our spirits and energy that makes the world go 'round. I don't descriminate any of the religions in the world, though I'm not fond of some.
Not much left to say about me, except that I'm a passionate reader and poetry has proved to be my main venting tool. How good I am in all that is left on you to judge. And remember:
I know I have conquered your thoughts. -
- WoB -
[last edit: 10/02/09]
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